@ 3:07 PM

so many thoughts running wild right now. dun really noe where to start. one thing i noe for sure, i dun wan my life to be the same as my parents. in some certain ways. or just financially.

i have learnt to be proud of myself. which i thought i did, but in fact was just a facade to delude myself. truly proud of yourself is to admit to the world who you are, not who you are expected to be. truly proud of yourself is to talk about yourself honestly even when with the fear of how people think about you.

i used to be scared, of how people look at me. i lived up to their expectations without realizing the trap i was creating for myself. the trap of lying to oneself and the world and being haunted by those lies.

i used to compare myself with other people, unconsciously. worried that im not as good as them, that im a loser despite my background. I now look at people more critically, not to find fault in them, but to realize that im not worse than them in many many ways. or even better.

life has many ways to evaluate a person. No definite answer as to who's better, who's worse.

@ 3:07 PM

so many thoughts running wild right now. dun really noe where to start. one thing i noe for sure, i dun wan my life to be the same as my parents. in some certain ways. or just financially.

i have learnt to be proud of myself. which i thought i did, but in fact was just a facade to delude myself. truly proud of yourself is to admit to the world who you are, not who you are expected to be. truly proud of yourself is to talk about yourself honestly even when with the fear of how people think about you.

i used to be scared, of how people look at me. i lived up to their expectations without realizing the trap i was creating for myself. the trap of lying to oneself and the world and being haunted by those lies.

i used to compare myself with other people, unconsciously. worried that im not as good as them, that im a loser despite my background. I now look at people more critically, not to find fault in them, but to realize that im not worse than them in many many ways. or even better.

life has many ways to evaluate a person. No definite answer as to who's better, who's worse.