@ 9:00 PM

I'm tired. Of speculating how people will look at me. Especially my family. It is weighing me down these days.

Will it be different if i did not chose to go overseas and study?

The answer is sooo obvious.

I think im heartless. Maybe it is not the right word...but rather...indifferent??? Old and familiar people, they seem million years away from me. I dunno...I'm making myself disapppearing from their life. Emails, messages, chat, less and less...till none at all...

Scary.

And scared. of myself.

@ 9:00 PM

I'm tired. Of speculating how people will look at me. Especially my family. It is weighing me down these days.

Will it be different if i did not chose to go overseas and study?

The answer is sooo obvious.

I think im heartless. Maybe it is not the right word...but rather...indifferent??? Old and familiar people, they seem million years away from me. I dunno...I'm making myself disapppearing from their life. Emails, messages, chat, less and less...till none at all...

Scary.

And scared. of myself.