@ 3:55 PM

Sitting in a room -which is messier than ever- in fron of the laptop. Sunny rays streaming into the room, make all the untidiness oh-so-painfully obvious and irritating.

Never to trust people easily, that is a lesson i have paid so much to learn, and yet din learn well enough. Always eye people with goodness and believe in hidden treasure behind every soul. Think nobody would ever harm me as they would get nothing out of it. Oh-so-gullible one would say. Want to think good about some stranger is some sort of obvious trap one would create for themselves. Fall in and out times and again. Hurt myself and ppl who truly care abt me times and again. It shld be time to put a stop to it.

Someone who dearly close to me once said, "when first meet a new person, people normally give him/her 100 marks, just to deduct accordingly to all the faults and mistakes created subsequently. When i first meet a person, i rather give them 0 mark then add on accordingly as i noe the person better". Make sense to me totally!

Those dreams keep haunting me. About family, old friends, old places. I dreamt about my future nephew (who is gg to arrive in 2 months time), about this close friend who i haven't seen for years, about my bb and some strange adventure with him. Is this becuz im longing to go back home? to be in my small room and the familiar bed once again? to taste all the food, to go to all the usual places? to experience the family warmth in the cold winter? one year long. So short compared to one's life, but yet so much missing and longing built up depsite all the friction and conflicts...

Home in 3 months time~

@ 3:55 PM

Sitting in a room -which is messier than ever- in fron of the laptop. Sunny rays streaming into the room, make all the untidiness oh-so-painfully obvious and irritating.

Never to trust people easily, that is a lesson i have paid so much to learn, and yet din learn well enough. Always eye people with goodness and believe in hidden treasure behind every soul. Think nobody would ever harm me as they would get nothing out of it. Oh-so-gullible one would say. Want to think good about some stranger is some sort of obvious trap one would create for themselves. Fall in and out times and again. Hurt myself and ppl who truly care abt me times and again. It shld be time to put a stop to it.

Someone who dearly close to me once said, "when first meet a new person, people normally give him/her 100 marks, just to deduct accordingly to all the faults and mistakes created subsequently. When i first meet a person, i rather give them 0 mark then add on accordingly as i noe the person better". Make sense to me totally!

Those dreams keep haunting me. About family, old friends, old places. I dreamt about my future nephew (who is gg to arrive in 2 months time), about this close friend who i haven't seen for years, about my bb and some strange adventure with him. Is this becuz im longing to go back home? to be in my small room and the familiar bed once again? to taste all the food, to go to all the usual places? to experience the family warmth in the cold winter? one year long. So short compared to one's life, but yet so much missing and longing built up depsite all the friction and conflicts...

Home in 3 months time~