@ 3:41 PM

feeling very sick rite now. face hot, fingers num, back ache, head ache, skin dry, eyes red, dry and swollen. or am i imagining things? wtf. this is mental illness or physical illnesS? boss not ard, all the more boring. feel totally like crap. wish for a bed to lie down, or somewhere i can hide myself and take a long deep rest w.o anyone disturbing or bothering me.

now i rmb the reason why i hate the feeling of broken promise so much. i forgot how it feel like, bt now it all coming back. it similar to this feeling, so much. and i hate it. broken promise and going back to ur own words, guess it pretty much the same.

it gonna be a long day, since dawn break till late night. no space for myself. it has been like this since starting my attachment, and the weekend gonna be worse. i mean, obviously im on my own, my own world, but they still witness me, look at me, judge me. i need some privacy. where i can do what i wish, as simple as lie down and cry if necessary. i dun wan to meet anybody cuz i will juz piss them off. i dun wan talk to anyone cuz i sure will be nasty. im the irritated self.

there are piles of clothes waiting for me. there is the messy table i havnt cleared since end of exams. there is the dusty floor i havnt swept. i rather do all those menial work rather than gazing at the computer all day and destroying myself with emotional wave.

technology is so hateful. sms is irritating, computer is stupid, and washing machine spoil clothes.

i need a break.

@ 3:41 PM

feeling very sick rite now. face hot, fingers num, back ache, head ache, skin dry, eyes red, dry and swollen. or am i imagining things? wtf. this is mental illness or physical illnesS? boss not ard, all the more boring. feel totally like crap. wish for a bed to lie down, or somewhere i can hide myself and take a long deep rest w.o anyone disturbing or bothering me.

now i rmb the reason why i hate the feeling of broken promise so much. i forgot how it feel like, bt now it all coming back. it similar to this feeling, so much. and i hate it. broken promise and going back to ur own words, guess it pretty much the same.

it gonna be a long day, since dawn break till late night. no space for myself. it has been like this since starting my attachment, and the weekend gonna be worse. i mean, obviously im on my own, my own world, but they still witness me, look at me, judge me. i need some privacy. where i can do what i wish, as simple as lie down and cry if necessary. i dun wan to meet anybody cuz i will juz piss them off. i dun wan talk to anyone cuz i sure will be nasty. im the irritated self.

there are piles of clothes waiting for me. there is the messy table i havnt cleared since end of exams. there is the dusty floor i havnt swept. i rather do all those menial work rather than gazing at the computer all day and destroying myself with emotional wave.

technology is so hateful. sms is irritating, computer is stupid, and washing machine spoil clothes.

i need a break.