@ 1:24 AM

Felt like running away today..Wanted to come back to the old lifestyle for once to see how it was like..compare and contrast...Horrible..Can't help much...Even got side-effect...Memories came back again, but now almost like stranger, not much feeling..Guess i almost recover..

Plz dun toy with my feeling..Can't tell if you are serious or juz playing to satisfy ur own ego n self-satisfaction..What you said and what you do is not tally...How can i take you seriously? Am i the only one who you said those words to? Why you heck care me, be mean to me?..Hope that u wun disappoint me, I can't bear to let your image in me shattering in to pieces..Or im juz being oversensitive and reading too much in something? Learn to take thing less seriously, can I?

Want to heck care u..Whenever i see you, i will act as if you were not there..But when you are not around, I will find excuse for myself to look for you, or at least to know about your whereabouts..And then when you appear, so close to me, i will act as if i didn't care about you at all..I have never been like this before..Don't like it at all, so unlike me..Why can't I be truthful to myself? I still care so much for ppl's opinion..Damn it..

Want to hide my feeling..and burry it away..But it stil there, stronger day by day..and threaten my peace of soul..

Am I being lonely? Izzit true that whenever I stop, i will feel the loneliness? Test water today, and almost frighten myself by the resulf ..Almost there..the unbearable lonliness..feel like with a crowd and yet still so lonely...

Forget it..Learn to let go..And come back to my world..to the unfinished fight..A new day has come..Let it be a new me as well..Optimistic and be simple..Juz do whatever I need to do..Just do it..There are ups and downs..Cant run away from the down moments, but you can control how long you want to be down..Plug urslef out of the hollow..and break the pattern, do something aprupt to chase the downness away. At least I learn something today =)

@ 1:24 AM

Felt like running away today..Wanted to come back to the old lifestyle for once to see how it was like..compare and contrast...Horrible..Can't help much...Even got side-effect...Memories came back again, but now almost like stranger, not much feeling..Guess i almost recover..

Plz dun toy with my feeling..Can't tell if you are serious or juz playing to satisfy ur own ego n self-satisfaction..What you said and what you do is not tally...How can i take you seriously? Am i the only one who you said those words to? Why you heck care me, be mean to me?..Hope that u wun disappoint me, I can't bear to let your image in me shattering in to pieces..Or im juz being oversensitive and reading too much in something? Learn to take thing less seriously, can I?

Want to heck care u..Whenever i see you, i will act as if you were not there..But when you are not around, I will find excuse for myself to look for you, or at least to know about your whereabouts..And then when you appear, so close to me, i will act as if i didn't care about you at all..I have never been like this before..Don't like it at all, so unlike me..Why can't I be truthful to myself? I still care so much for ppl's opinion..Damn it..

Want to hide my feeling..and burry it away..But it stil there, stronger day by day..and threaten my peace of soul..

Am I being lonely? Izzit true that whenever I stop, i will feel the loneliness? Test water today, and almost frighten myself by the resulf ..Almost there..the unbearable lonliness..feel like with a crowd and yet still so lonely...

Forget it..Learn to let go..And come back to my world..to the unfinished fight..A new day has come..Let it be a new me as well..Optimistic and be simple..Juz do whatever I need to do..Just do it..There are ups and downs..Cant run away from the down moments, but you can control how long you want to be down..Plug urslef out of the hollow..and break the pattern, do something aprupt to chase the downness away. At least I learn something today =)